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I know this is old news, but we were able to bring Jamin home Wednesday. He was able to leave even though he isn't "healed" completely because I have been there there soaking up what to do, how to care for him, and what to watch for. Otherwise it would be another 3-4 weeks before he has a normal breathing rate. He cannot nurse enough to meet his needs, so along with a little bit of nursing he takes a special bottle of my pumped milk; fed to him in a way that is easy on him but won't get into his lungs. Other than that, we are just doing the normal newborn bit around here.

When we took him outside those hospital doors that afternoon it was his first breath of "real" air, after 18 days of life; the tears of joy were flowing. When I laid in my own bed that night I suddenly felt the heaviness of the situation. Weariness overtook me in every way: emotionally, physically, mentally, spiritually.

Ecclesiastes 3:7, "A time to tear and a time to mend."